A light when all other lights go out!

wanna go home na...

last december 14, 2010, i went over to bellecroft (i was living in my uncle's home in tandang sora that time) so that i could leave with clyde and go to the UP Observatory to witness the Geminids meteor shower. we were joining members of the UP Astronomical Society, of which clyde was an alumna. i was a happy "saling-pusa". on the observatory deck, we laid our backs down on a mat and looked up at the dark night sky, waiting for the shooting stars to appear. at some time past ten, they began to shoot across the sky to the delight of all the observers. i remembered someone. i texted him : ______, heads up! (to the sky) there's a meteor shower tonight! oh my god! i just saw a shooting star!!! :) :) :) one falling star wish will be for you, the rest is mine! mwahahahaha! :) he texted back : It's too bright at our place. :(. Make that wish for me. Sana happy and warm ang christmas. :). Yun lang ang gusto ko. You can take the rest. Hehe. Ikaw, ano ultimate wish mo...

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." —Martin Luther King, Jr. but it's important not to forget it.

i just wanted to file this somewhere: Time and The New Yorker began what would become a trend in American magazines. There are now fact-checking departments all over the country. While fear of lawsuits certainly motivates publishers to maintain these departments, most realize that they need checkers to keep their readers' good faith. Big errors may occasionally end up in court; small errors, such as wrong dates or incorrect name spellings, will be remarked on by thousands of people. If each reader begins to trust the publication a little less with every error, the eventual cost will be its reputation. - from The Fact Checker's Bible, written by Sarah Harrison Smith

remind me to marry this guy someday. :D

i rarely understand poems, but i found this really beautiful. i want to memorize it: oberon addressing puck in A Midsummer Night's Dream: Once I sat upon a promontory And heard a mermaid on a dolphin’s back Uttering such dulcet and harmonious breath That the rude sea grew civil at her song And certain stars shot madly from their spheres To hear the seamaid’s music so beautiful.

i was hungry so i made a list of things i wanted to eat: pizza, wonderful pasta, chicken, peach mango pie, tocino, longganisa, chocolates, chocolate cake, ice cream cake (if there's still room in the stomach), macaroni soup, lomi soup, other kinds of soup, bulalo, hardinera, chop suey, salads with dressing. and then i will diet afterward. eat fitnesse. and other cereals rich in whole grain and fiber. if i eat with my stomach always full afterward, do you think i will stay slim? hihihihi.

why do i even try?

i officially heart lone survivor. more about it next time (if my writing works out).

but don't you see? this is really hard for me.

only lala could have come up with that term. she texted me: what are the good lady cory's plans for her looming natal day festivities? i replied: i don't know eh. let's have dinner 25 or 26 and then watch zero dark 30? cha think? lala: i can do 26! sure! san tayo nood? hehe. saka zero dark 30 pa rin talaga? don't you wanna do a really great rom-com fest instead? hehe, inspired by my recent watching of you've got mail kc, heehee. we'll treat you to dinner, your pick. between jollibee and mcdo. : p cory: jollibee nalang. please rent the entire restaurant for the day for our exclusive use and please make sure that everybody goes home with their own bag of giveaway goodies. tnx. i'll think about the movie logistics later. rom-coms are social constructs that lead people to believe in illusory notions of love and as such are not worth our time. : D

Any act of writing creates conditions for the author’s possible mortification. - Mark O'Connell, The New Yorker This is the reason why I keep this blog mostly strictly unknown. :)

Happy new year, dearling! I have a feeling 2014's a good year for dream chasing! ;) - Lala's New Year's text to me. I found a breath of hope in this poem: New Beginnings by Gertrude B. McClain It’s only the beginning now …a pathway yet unknown At times the sound of other steps …sometimes we walk alone The best beginnings of our lives May sometimes end in sorrow But even on our darkest days The sun will shine tomorrow. So we must do our very best Whatever life may bring And look beyond the winter chill To smell the breath of spring. Into each life will always come A time to start anew A new beginning for each heart As fresh as morning dew. Although the cares of life are great And hands are bowed so low The storms of life will leave behind The wonder of a rainbow. The years will never take away Our chance to start anew It’s only the beginning now So dreams can still come true.

his name in a series that i was watching, the heirs, is kim tan . in reality, he is lee minho . i am currently stalking him on the internet and i found this. it is from an interview he did before. Q: if you were to describe your life in one word, what would that be? A: This is very hard (laughs). Very hard... "Dream." Because I feel that everyday, something unexpected happens. Everyday, I get to experience something new, so it's like a dream. i like his answer. yes, kim tan, YOU are definitely a DREAM. YOU are MY DREAM. (aieeee!!!!!!!) :D

i woke up today and there was the smell of pasta in the air. obviously, my roommate, mafel, was cooking pasta. as i was going out the door to leave for work, i contemplated bringing some pasta with me. i was already holding a container in my hand when i thought better of it - i was running late. because of the container i was holding, i remembered the time last year when pitchie cooked food and put some in a container for me to bring to the office. here is the container: the container reads: Dear Cur, take this as a sign of my love.. : p there were rice and fish in the container, which i happily ate at the office. you know, one of my favorite moments in life is when other people give me food. it makes me so happy. pitchie is very sweet, isn't she? later that evening, we were walking home and she asked me how i found the fish. i started to make a face. "'di ko kasi masabi kung masarap ba yung fish or hindi eh. para kasing...kulang. kelangan ko pa ata ng more ...

i had a dream that i was with my nephews. i was in this house with them and we were in a room that had interesting hidden rooms. it was very interesting. one day, if i am going to get a house, i'm gonna have interesting hidden rooms in it as well.

i can't help it if my eyes glaze over and my spirits plummet, you know? i told myself i shouldn't write things like this anymore. it seems depressing. i apologize. ranting makes me feel a little better.

thinking of this guy right now:

"one falling star wish is for you, the rest is mine!" :)

i want to remember that time: 4 glorious hours. phone burning into my ears but i didn't care. first texts. me obviously jumping up and down. lol. Holy Ground (Taylor Swift) i was reminiscing just the other day while having coffee all alone and Lord, it took me away back to a first-glance feeling on a New York time back when you fit my poems like a perfect rhyme took off faster than a green light, go yeah, you skipped the conversation when you already know. :)

you paint me a blue sky then go back and turn it to rain.

Yesterday, I liked this: Cory (texting Lotis): Lot, halu. May time ka? If you have, pwede favor, paki-call sa Crystal Clear (water company)? 1 slim/water jug lang. Money outside the door. Di kasi ako makalabas sa office namin. Lotis: Ok, kuriring. I'll call. Kainis, she called me "kuriring". In the house, they call me "kuriring". I hesitated about taking this down because, you know, why would someone take down a simple text exchange? But then again, I'd take down almost anything that makes me smile, laugh, cry, etc., if I could. But I had second thoughts about this because it seems kind of embarrassingly sentimental to be recording ordinary things, as if they were special. But I like ordinary things, and I'm the kind of person, anyway, who would often remind herself to appreciate simple but wonderful, ordinary little things in life. It's just that I keep thinking that these things don't necessarily have to happen, you know? Life is not ...

I am watching the Korean drama "The Heirs" at this time and in Episode 1, Cha Eun Sang, a girl in the series, looks at her life and asks, Was I destined to have a bad life? And I was thinking, Sometimes I wonder the same thing about mine.

but darling, i wish you well on your way to the wishing well.

last night, i told myself to do these things: mail this document my brother has been asking for, buy this cream at the mall, see if there's baygon because i found a cockroach in the bathroom and i'm having a troublesome time trying to kill it with a slipper, look for a new job, look at black socks, order water for the house, and get apples. and do everything else.