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Ang sakit, bes

for some reason, i hate my job right now.

this is the only photo that i have to remember this day by. thank you, first and foremost, to God for having my brother safe and sound, and thank you to my brother for the favors he did me today. thank you to Kuya Joel for being with me and my brother and facilitating our trip today and thank you to the uber drivers who led us to and fro our various destinations and ensured our safety. thank God nothing untoward occurred. thankful. 4/18/2017

- when your project manager is irresponsible by neglecting to attend to matters where you are to receive the compensation due you - and you have to ask your brother, who just got back from overseas work, to fend for you, when he's not even comfortably well off - and then you and he have to go visit your incarcerated father at his initiative because he is genuinely concerned - the moment the father sees his two children: one gets up to reach for the father's hand to bring to his forehead while the other just sits there, impassive and detached - but the father reaches for the daughter instead and hugs her (which she does not return), lodging away the gesture of the son in the process, hay naku - observed by the daughter with no reaction but with a disapproval that she does not show - and you're interrogated regarding your life, when you have no intention at all of giving answers that indicate a positive and encouraging status in life, or that signify treading a ...

pwede umamin? kahit konti lang. naghahanap na ako ng katulad mo, only to find out na wala kang katulad. i sometimes miss you.

working but obviously thinking of something else! :)

today, i have two important papers waiting for me to write them - one is on a policy to get more allocations to the regions, the other is on a labor market study on region 6. right now, i'm hating writing both papers, for different reasons. i spent the whole night looking for something to help me write the paper - inspiration, helpful words from a friend, but i got nothing to get me going. the best thing that i found was this, written by seth godin on his blog. it's about temperament and mastering it. right now, it's probably what i need to hear. thank you for writing it, mr. godin. :) Temperament is a skill Throwing tantrums, calling names, not doing the reading, making things up, demonizing the other, impulsivity, egomaniacal narcissism, breaking big promises... Waiting your turn, asking hard questions, thinking about others, slowing down in key moments... Telling the truth, taking responsibility... Giving others a chance to share their ideas, attracting and...

June 30, 2016 words that i'd like to remember: june 30, 2016. from Usec. Clare to DBM. Sa huling araw po ng Team Abad sa DBM, nais po naming pasalamatan kayo'ng lahat -- Sa pagbibigay ninyo ng inyong mga Sarili para sa Bayan, Sa pagsakripisyo ninyo ng Oras para sa pahinga, pamilya, at lovelife, Sa pagiging bukas ninyo sa amin, sa pagmamatyag, at sa inyong pakikisama. Maraming, maraming salamat po :) Napamahal po kayo sa amin. Asahan niyo po na susuportahan namin kayo bilang mga kaibigan at kasamahan bagaman nasa labas na kami ng DBM. At sana po maipagpatuloy ang kahusayan ng ating trabaho sa susunod na anim na taon. Maraming salamat po! Mula po kay Sec Butch at sa buong DBM OSEC 2010-2016.

when it's time to walk that way, you want to walk it well. :) - goes for everything else in life.

about Don again. i texted him one night. it was late and i was in starbucks trying to wind down from the flurry of high-pressure activities i have at work. i was simultaneously wondering how i was going to work out my schedule while wishing there was someone to talk to. so i texted him. the dialogue is nothing special but because the guy is, it's special enough to write down here. cory: hi, good evening. i'm just texting because i wanted to distract myself. you don't have to reply if you're busy. yesterday, i learned that when i'm stressed out, i tend to look for conversation. you're a candidate, haha. :) don: i'm not busy but i'm in bed almost ready to go to sleep. i'll reply until i fall asleep so shoot... :) cory: may kwento ka? did you do interesting things today? have something big happening tomorrow? :) don: interesting? uh, not really, was in the office thinking about filing a case for tro/injunction against the bureau. don: tomo...

you know that moment when you try to solve something you've been grappling with for 7 hours on a weekend and your boss solves it in 30 sec of her first few minutes in the office? i know, i know, there's a gulf of a difference between me and my boss in terms of knowledge, experience, acquired know-how, level of decision-making, but...yeah. hahahaha! i am in awe.

there was that time when i asked, how art thou? you said, i'm fine milady. you know, to be honest, i wish i don't, but i miss you.

i just wanted to talk. is it okay if it's just rambling, not written well? i've been having difficulty, emotionally, in carrying out my work. the intellectual part of it is not what i find difficult. it's the part where i'm working on it in an environment that is not filled with people other than myself - meaning to say, that i am doing overtime work on saturdays and sundays and there aren't a lot of people around so i somehow feel so lonesome. it would actually help if i were to do my work in a coffee shop but i don't have the means for that right now. i don't have a laptop and a car for transporting with me office documents that i need, which can be voluminous. so it looks like there is nothing to do for it but to endure. and i will have to remind myself, cor, it's worth it to endure. it's worth it.

i look at my schedule then think about my project and i feel a sense of an impending disaster. :(

two weeks ago, 17 and 18 to be exact, i came home just a bit bummed out. i had attended an international conference on fiscal openness and, on the afternoon of the 18th, had to race out of the conference and back to the office to take notes on a meeting that high-level bosses were having. and, in the whole of those two days, i had found myself in the dismaying situation of barely being able to grasp the matters being discussed at hand. i was really bothered about it. the coming monday, 21 of this month, september, i wasn't going to proceed to work directly because i had a dental appointment so i was sitting on a chair in our living room thinking about what i felt was a shocking situation of me not being able to follow work discussions. i was wondering what i could do about it. my mind immediately referred me to don. i wasn't sure if i could enlist don for help but i decided to test the waters. i sent him a text: Don, hello. good am. are you busy? he replied: Hi cory. ...

my crush just came in into the office and asked me if our boss was there. did not realize how bashful i was around him until i saw how i absolutely did not know how to talk to him.

(disclaimer: don't expect well thought-out pieces from me as i write while i watch 'a gentleman's dignity'. this is merely flash writing.) ^_^ i'm currently watching south korea's 'a gentleman's dignity'. i was looking for entertainment - the gripping, nuanced kind with a bittersweet payoff, the kind that is offered by koreanovelas - so i surfed the korean menu a bit. i first tried 'master's sun' by the hong sisters but i didn't get hooked. i was longing for a kim eun sook story but i had already seen 'the heirs' and 'secret garden' and i hadn't liked 'lovers in paris' when i remembered - i hadn't watched 'a gentleman's dignity' as yet! minutes into the episode, the series already had me laughing, and the actors had won me over. i like kim eun sook's taste. the first episode has what i look for - it is funny, insightful, sweet and meaningful. and it's witty too. consider these ...

i have a secret. i think i have a crush on this guy named glenn. he works here; he's from a different unit but has the same oversight boss as me. we never really work together but during the past few days, i attended some events that he was working on and it was in those days that i saw glenn smile at me TWICE. it was a grin, actually. and a terrific one at that. i saw glenn grin at me like he was christmas and it has been driving me to distraction ever since. the first time happened while the crew was hanging out together at a booth in a governance fair at the convention center here in the city. jojo and ludell were talking and when i approached, they told me they were talking about me. they said i was like one of those characters in the movie Inside Out and that i looked pretty that day. glenn looked up from where he was sitting and he grinned at me. i wondered if i was imagining things. the second time was at work. i was in their office taking up something with his collea...

i am so THANKFUL EVERY DAY to have an EXTRAORDINARY BOSS. happy birthday!

"this is the moment that we must meet". - pres. barack obama, opening remarks on open government partnership. short, but a great speech. :)