A light when all other lights go out!

haist. lee min ho is dating someone already. can i go back to the time when i didn't care at all? heehee. ok, ok, i'm going back to stuyding now.

i appreciated this: keep your head up. God gives His hardest battles to His strongest soldiers... okay. sige, kaya ko 'to. na-strengthen ako kc, sa situation ko, as far as i can see, things just seem to be so overtly and subtly difficult.

i see that lately when i come here i only talk about songs. that's because those times are usually stolen moments from long hours of being in front of a computer or laptop working on something, or as is the case at the moment, studying. i came here because i just wanted to note something. i noticed that when i'm already several hours deep into work/study, there's a song that i appreciate unexpectedly hearing. it gives me an unexpected boost of energy and motivation because of the inspiration it provokes at a time when i'm already tired and my endurance is strained. it's like when you're already dragging your feet along and then you're reminded or inspired to pick up your pace. the song is chasing cars by snow patrol: if i lay here, if i just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world? forget what we're told, before we get too old. show me a garden that's bursting into life. when my work gets too technical, mechanical or borin...

sometimes, there are just some things you can't break free from. and it drives you crazy in your head and in your heart. and there's no solution for it. if there's really nothing you can do about it, try a song. mine right now is taylor swift's "out of the woods". "out of the woods" was a song taylor swift wrote about the anxiety she felt while she was in this relationship that she didn't know was going to work out or not. and i remember liking what she said about it, how even in those kinds of things, it's still beautiful and worth it because it had, somehow, the things that you were looking for - you know, the things that people look for in love. i kind of feel envious that she was able to encapsulate her feelings in a song that would go around the world and remind her, the other person, and the world just how beautiful it all was and is. for me, maybe listening to "out of the woods" is a way of looking at an old polaroid of a...

so, here i am, holed up in a room in a hotel, working. bec it's already past 2 in the morning and i'm worried about working this late when i am actually still very much sick, i just wanted to remind myself, in case i forgot to reflect on it, that this is actually a good first new experience for me. my first baby step toward an industry or field i could actually be perhaps destined for. :p (a silent thanks to God, Mama Mary and Pope John Paul II)

spin that record, babe. :)

the whole week of christmas week, i'd been trying to schedule meeting time with lala. on the 22nd, we talked about meeting that day, then changed our minds and talked about cramming something on the 23rd. in the same conversation, we changed our minds again, and settled for meeting on the 24th, during the early parts of the day. on the night of the 23rd, sometime 11 pm, i became unsure about the wisdom of getting together during christmas eve. i guessed we'd probably be busy, what with last-minute shopping, cooking, getting together with family, relatives, and other friends, and doing other miscellaneous things. at about the same time, lala texted me to confirm details of our plan: dearling, what time you free for a meetup/visit tom? i replied: 12 noon nalang, lalie. let's have lunch and then starb after? wavering about the plan, i decided to consult allison, the third party in our meetup. i texted him: allison, halu. gising ka pa? i knew there was something ironic...