rambling

These days, my heart still gets confronted by a familiar feeling - that of pain. I feel pain. I'm feeling pain right now. But though the feeling dampens my mood, taking away my exuberance for the moment, it is only for the moment. And though I can't muster more than a small smile, my heart still smiles anyway, and I guess that's what matters.

For if you think about it, the pain you feel can be a compliment you give to another person. That that person was light, and a joy to you. A source of smiles. And more often than not, it is what makes us smile that is often the cause of what makes us cry. But that's alright. It's part and package of the whole thing called love, light, and joy. And it's alright, because it's a compliment to the other that he was a human star to you.

You feel pain when some good act is withheld from you. And try as you might to see the good in the situation, nonetheless, the suffering it releases in your heart remains authentic and genuine, stopping a full-on smile, curtailing a fountain gush of unbridled happiness or just plain good humor.

But right now, I'm alright with feeling the pain. I go on. With good humor even, even if momentarily robbed of the full-on brightness of my smile. It's ok. It's good to go on right now. Continue on your path. Continue on your journey. Share stories along the way. Brighten spaces and warm hearts along the way.

I just finished reading two books this week. It was great. I loved them! Wonderful, so wonderful. I have tons of work to do and I must get on with them. Maybe I should tell a story right now, but I don't know. It's 11 but I'm feeling the lateness of the hour and the longing for sleep, and the TTD list I need to get to. :)

Ciao, blog. Gotta attend to stuff now. :)

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